I am writing this so I can be honest about my feelings not only about you but also my observations on our relationship whether this to be physical or emotional. I am concerned that when I try and discuss any issues about us it is met with hostility especially when trying to discuss the difficult issues. I will be the first to admit that I am not the easiest person to live with in some instances but in general I believe that I am a good person and an exceptionally loving husband who loves his wife with his entire heart and will compromise to give her what she needs or wants in most circumstances.

I do feel however that lately our relationship has changed. I will be honest that I believe sexual gratification for both parties is big part of a healthy relationship. I feel as though in our relationship lately that any time I start to caress you (you are a beautiful woman and I find it hard not to ravage you) you immediately start to get aggressive/defensive pushing me away stating “THAT I AM GROPING YOU”. I am confused by this as in previous times when we have been in similar situations you have not been this way, we have been able to enjoy ourselves sexually and satisfy each other’s desires in specific ways depending on the situation. This has flat out stopped now, I cannot remember the last time you sexual way without me begging you to. I know you think I am pathetic for thinking this but it is true. The dynamics of our physical relationship has changed dramatically from both of us initiating sexual activity to me pestering you make love and when you agree the general format of the love making is me giving you oral pleasure (which I love doing) and when you orgasm you hurriedly urge me to enter you and for me orgasm quickly. This process for me is having sex not making love it takes about 10 minutes and honestly leaves me feeling somewhat………. I don’t know what words to use as I can’t really describe the feeling. I guess the closest I can come to describing it is sympathy sex to keep me quite, this sounds particularly harsh I know but this is the best I can come up with. I don’t want or nor did I intend for that last statement to be hurtful. I like to make love to you…… NO I LOVE TO MAKE LOVE YOU. I believe up until approx 6 to 8 months ago we had a great varied sex life it was exciting, varied, loving and fulfilling for both parties involved (please correct me if I am wrong in this statement). I want to go back to when you wanted me and wanted to be in partnership with giving each other mutual pleasure especially in the early months of our loving relationship.

I know that there may be other factors at play in the above situation but I can only hope that you can be as honest as I am and discuss the issues with me. I believe I am open to any discussion you wish to have with me whether this be on a positive note or negative note.
I know you are down on yourself about our current financial situation but I just want to assure you it is not your fault and you have if anything provided us with extra time together which is way more important than finances. I love spending time with you and I know you think that I am up to something and I am unsure why you think this. I have had friendships which you have disapproved of in the past and I am more than aware of these and now have very limited contact if any at all as I know how this makes you feel. I just want to say though that there was never anything in these relationships other then friendship and that is all. I have eyes only for one person and that person is you.

I know I have put you many difficult situations both physically and mentally with the torment of past and hopefully I will be able to somewhat insulated us from this situation in the near future.
I am however a realist and I want you to be honest with me in all regards to all aspects of our life together. If you are unhappy I want you to sit down with me and discuss it with me. When you are upset I want you to sit down and discuss it with me. When you are happy I want you to discuss it with me. If you are having trouble making life changing decisions please discuss it with me. I love you.

You are my best friend, my lover, my rock and MY WIFE! I have never loved anyone so much in life and have never wanted to be with someone so much in my life. I Love You!!

I wake in the morning and everything is so brand new.
Life is a cereal bowl that I swim around in, just with you.
A sprinkle of sugar so sweet
To my day you add
A warm glimpse of love
You make it good, me so glad.

I never need to dream when I love my days this much
Never need to dream ever,
When our hands gently touch
Never have there been sweeter days than now it’s true.
Nights are like hot chocolate when I spend them with you.